Rich Rants

Can’t let this kind of shit fuck me over; I’ve been saying that to myself countless times. Me saying I’ve been the victim would be a fallacy, I know for a fact that I did something not too pleasant as well… doing something awful and being a victim (of some other shit) at the same time… well, I guess I did deserved it since it kinda evened out, no?

We are never too old to learn. Sure you mature as you grow but that doesn’t necessarily means that you are wise… you never will be. Anyone saying that they already know shit is an idiot. Okay, maybe not an idiot but unwise through and through.

I still have alot of growing up to do; I’m only 28 and I have long ways to go and Goddamn if I will allow myself to be this fucked up just because I got fucked over by someone (and fucked someone over).

To you who caused all of this crap, all I have to say is this: thank you for showing your true colors early otherwise I would have been in deeper shit that will be difficult to get out of. I will not harbor ill-feelings towards you nor do anything against you at all. May you have a full life to you and your family. Everything was happening so fast and I damn sure know that quickly built meant quickly abandoned. I felt this thing was built on a quicksand and having something built on a quicksand is no bargain at all. And here I am paid the price quite handsomely: a couple of weeks of sleepless nights, getting physically ill and all that fun stuff was the result. Anyways, I’m over with it.

And to the one that I screwed over: I’m very, very, terribly sorry. You absolutely have no fucking idea how awful I felt after all this… I will atone for my shortcoming, this I assure you.

… I lost my faith in you.

Yea, I talk in riddles.

So many things have happened since the last time I posted…

I found out that I lost one of my
friends in Iraq, that bummed me out for the better part of
April–knowing him for 4 years when I was in the Navy…then finding out about him dying just like that… I’m at loss
for words…