Rich Rants

A good portion of my life has been one of sacrifice: it is how I was brought up.. I guess it’s because it’s a “good thing” to do. And you know what, I have no qualms about it. In fact, I’m glad that it was ingrained in me at a very young age.

There’s this one book that I read and they were talking about what’s the basis for any strong relationship? It could be a lot of things but for me, it’s called “Unrequited Commitment“… it as at the core of any strong relationship is at least one moment of pure selflessness..

I’ve had conversations with other people specially the newly weds.. there’s this girl that was willing to go with him anywhere he wants to–even if that would mean the girl leaving the career/work that she loves.. she’ll give it up just for him. “What a lucky fucking guy” I thought.

I wish that my relationship with people (or girls for that matter) was a good as the others… but nope, seems like I always keep getting saddled with women that as selfish as a 2-year old spoiled brat.

And God knows why I even bother to always be the White Knight that comes to their aid when the going gets tough for them. I think I have to blame my “good” side for doing so… helping other people and all that crap.

Am I going to change my mantra about my unrequited commitment? Fuck no. It only meant that those people didn’t deserved my all in the first place. That’s all there is to it.

And for the ones who wronged me, there’s an old saying “what goes around, comes around…”

Karmic justice can be a bitch, guaranteed.

I just turned 30 a couple of days ago and I feel… lacking.

I still have a long way to go, that’s all there is to it.

With the U.S. economy at an all-time low, many businesses, no matter which industry are resorting to things like laying off workers just to stay afloat.

Our company in that matter have been doing some “retrenching” for the past few weeks as well; which was one of the things that’s been making me lose sleep these past few days. I knew that it was just a matter of time before this company’s frantic effort would rear it’s (ugly) head in my department.

And it did not disappoint.

We lost alot of ppl this Friday and some of them were good co-workers of mine. I didn’t knew the entire scope until Friday night from a friend. Learning that my name was still on the schedule list seems to have lifted this heavy load off my shoulders.

The realities of living in a Corporate world… it made me worry to the point that it almost convinced me to go back to the Military service all of a sudden…

…we’ll see what tommorrow brings then.