Fear of the unknown
August 16, 2009
Well, with my GI Bill running out, I’ve been thinking of ways to use it and somewhat fit that crap in with my already hectic schedule since going to schools like UNLV or CSN is impractical… so I was thinking of taking classes online.
However, a good friend of mine suggested that since I’m going back to College, I might as well pursue a degree that I really wanted.
And that is Fine Arts.
Of course, that’s what my heart demands since I love to draw. But then, on the other hand, my practical side (ze brain) is telling me to be uh, practical and pursue something that I really dig as well and that would be Foreign Affairs (something that deals with Military Side of things)… and besides, being a former military serviceman, we’ve done some stuff that you would not see on any news bureaus so yea, I can relate and all that stuff.
I guess I’m coming to the point that I have to take care of MY needs, do the stuff that I REALLY want and be fucking happy with my life after five and a half years of sacrifice and setbacks that nearly drove me to the edge.
So, I decided that I will push with my passion– but it’s not going to be easy since filing paperworks with the Veteran’s Affairs takes considerable amount of time and patience. And I’m going to a Foreign School (much cheaper) so it’s going to be complicated.
I already started calling my friends and relatives to get infos for me.
I still have to talk to the VA for clarifications on this matter. But from the infos that I’m getting, it’s becoming more and more of a possibility so that’s motivating me to move on.
I must admit, I am nervous and apprehensive since human’s natural instinct of fearing the unknown is kicking in.
But I’m thinking: “Fuck it, no regrets, right? Live the life you want it to be!”
Yea, I know, such a overused cliche but it’s true anyways.